ice sets in

The city lights shine dimly in the darkness. Watching from my window the cars drive by. My breath leaves moisture on the glass. The light from the bathroom is all that illuminates the small space. Everything in the room stands quiet, except the ticking of the clocks. I ponder what the best escape might be, burning up quietly by the window. My reflection stares back at me. I used to dwell in the sun. The moon has become my only friend. I took a leap too soon, there was nothing on the other side. I fell hard twice. Twice the brokens. Twice the water. Twice the faded smile. Twice I learn, twice I forget. I forge an ice from the bellows; iron tough, yet fragile. I forget again to lean on my own.

please clear the area

The crop-dusting airplane has flown low over my neurons, causing a haze to settle over my thoughts. A dónde voy ahora? Busco en cuartos oscuros, explorando los rincones escondidos de mi celebro. Pero ciego ando; botando cosas y papeles. No sé como guardar el corazón del otro. Maybe I should let it go. Maybe I should hold it close. But it burns my hands either way.

El porvenir me confunda. Quiero creer tanto en algunas cosas, pero cuido mi esperaza. Demasiado he confiado en algo que me lastimó en el final. Quiero creer sus palabras. Quiero creer que me quiere tanto como dice. Y dice que somos buenos para el otro. Pero también dice que marchamos lentamente. Y estoy de aquerdo con esto. Dentro mi corazón espero lo mejor para él y para mi.

It's been awhile

I don't know what to write though I was thinking today that I should write. Last night I went out to a bar and had a great time. There were these two guys there, who were partners but they were so much fun. We just talked and danced and all that good stuff. I was out with a couple of my friends. They were the type of guys that I would totally want to invite over to my house for games and dinner and drinks. I also realized last night that I am at the point in my life where I think I would do better in a relationship than the sporadic dating that I've been doing. I just need to find the right guy.

But you gots ta be patient. So patience is something I try to develope and understand. It's never been one of my strong points.