Erotic

what a week. Last night I was all wiggles and nerves until I got home from work and then c-r-a-s-h-e-d. I don't know why I was sooooo tired. But the pharmacist that I work with gave me her number. I think she would like to go out sometime. I'm open to the idea. Dating a girl again might be good, and who knows, I could fall in love and get married and have children. Or something.

but on the gay side of things, a guy that I hung out with Sat night totally caught my attention. He's totally straight, except he's open to the idea of sex with guys, but he just exudes sexuality. I loved it. Def a sexual being. When I hear Madonna sing "Erotic, erotic, put your hands all over my body... erotica... romance... erotica... romance... I'd like to put you in a trance... (all over me)..." I think of him and just being completely sexual with him. Mmmmm......

Don Ryan Triumphant: The Return

No, that's not me. And really I'm not aspiring to look like that. But if I did I wouldn't complain. I just finally since the fisrt of December, returned to the gym today! I also got over a friend mess-up. Though I don't hold any grudge against him, anymore, I find I do like lower doses of him in my life. And two of my favorite people in the world might be returning to Phx.

So here is my boy situation in plain English:

I was seeing a guy, but he isn't really putting much effort into seeing me. So it's died down and I'm not looking to revive it. He wasn't that much fun anyway, kinda high maintenance... however if he does put some energy into it, I will respond. It's not over, just kinda dying. I'm also talking to another guy but we've tried to date before, there's just still a lot of left over sexual tension. I don't want to date him really, I just want to be sexual with him in a committed kinda way, if that makes sense. But more than likely that won't happen, and that's fine by me.

So for those of you who are long-time readers you might be thinking, "wow, he's not all obsessive over any guy, he's actually just letting things develolpe as they will." Or something similar.

;)

I knew the day was dawning

"She could have easily disappeared into pop obscurity like the other frothy pop tartlets (Cyndi Lauper, Neneh Cherry) who came to fame on nascent MTV in the early 1980s. But Madonna's masterful manipulation of her image and the press, combined with an astute business sense, have crowned her as one of entertainment's wealthiest and most enduring acts. While her albums don't sell like they used to, her concerts still set attendance records all over the world, grossing $1 billion over the course of her 20-year career. The Material Girl's portfolio is also crammed with expensive items like contemporary art, real estate and a wardrobe of no small historical significance." -forbes

I wish that they did, but alas, they don't. But I still love her!

college fever

OMG!!!!!!

This was my horrorscope for today:

"The trouble with some neighbors can be ironed out by simply moving on. You are on automatic pilot today. Offer no opinions but accept any leads graciously and follow them. Soulmate energy could be stalled because of too much attention."

not sure what

I awoke last night to the evil, rude, loud neighbors doing. There was a loud knocking on the wall. Despite that I'm all for copulation, I hate these people. But put up with it anyway. But I decided this morning it's on. I'm going to pound on the wall and begin to make their lives miserable. And I'm out of there at the end of May. Only 4.5 short months away!
But the part that annoys me the most: the power I'm allowing them to have over me. If I hear some loud music or get woken at night I'm pissed and they determine my mood. So now I'm going to try and just look beyond that; learn to be in the mood I want to be in.
On to other news:
I still haven't gotten my ass to the gym. I did run two miles last night and I'm eating much better... trying to stay to the basic groups, away from the preservative stuff and the bad carbs (except breads and pasta and everything like that). I mean like donuts, fast food, etc.
But I'm still far from the physique I want to be. But I'm working there. March 15th is coming quick!

Fire in my core

I've been dealing with some pretty bad heartburn lately. I'm on the ranitidine, but it's not kicking it as well as it used to. I think I need to start eating better. Ugh. I don't want to say good bye to my Jack in the Box, or Taco Bell. Eww. I just read that I eat there and got sick. I think my alter ego was the one who bought it. I'll have to get after her. She is a fat girl after all. I need to skinny her down.

Over a Glittering Cloud

It's been so long since I've been on this thing. I was looking around various shops today and thought that I wanted to really blog again. I thought I wanted to be edgy, thoughtful, sexy, forward. Because that seems to be where I'm at in life. Not that I'm those things, but that I'm ready for change and I'm ready for a new me.

I was talking with my good friends who's visiting from Italy this holiday season and said that I just wanted to be stronger: physically, mentally, emotionally, socially, liguistically, intellectually, etc. The list goes on and on. This though was stemming from talking about how I feel that 2007 is such a strong year, the numbers are strong, 20, 7, even 00. I like the look of them together. And they are all numbers that I've liked in my life. Then next year that will have this effect on me I think is 2013, another strong year.

I like this mindset because I want to get my ducks in a row, so to speak. And for me to get them all in a row I will have to be very disiplined and very strong. The hardest will be myself. I'm naturally very lazy and just let things happen. Sometimes I'm a bomb that ticking and sometimes I explode.

I went to the art walk/first friday that Phx does. It felt good to get out and about. I also felt the creation there, and felt like I wanted to be apart of it. The creation, making things, making things better. Making my life what I want it to be. Finally, doing it. So let's see, I'm going to try my hardest.