I am special too

I jump in.
No, stand back.
Take it slowly.
Take your time.
You've gone too far
too soon.
Take a step back while there
is still time.
You found someone beautiful.
Someone who makes you
feel beautiful.
But take back your heart.
It's too early to hand out.
Don't play the fool.
Again.

You are still special.
You are already whole.
You have your own life.
You fight for your own way.
You have shown that you
can make it alone.

Life will never be complete,
that's the best part.
Always changing,
always evolving.

Let go of illusions.
Stay with the truth.
Remember who you are.
I am still special.
I am me, and I am loved.

Just breathe

Wow, stress to the maximum is how I feel: finals, new relationship, being sick. I don't like it.

I am already terrible at relationships so I'm trying really hard to chill with this one and just keep it chill. Especially since it's just been a few weeks. But exacerbated with finals and being sick, I feel like the end is very near, and inevitable... ugh.

Breathe, breathe, breathe, xanax... lol

Still good advice...

I still remember a friend telling me to not be the victim. So I'm not going to fall into that trap again. I won't be the victim when it comes to this relationship. He seems to be perfect: met through good, mutual friends, we share similar interests, we are attracted to each other, I love his personality, I can listen to him talk - he keeps my interest... just so happy with him.

But with it come the fears of the unknown and uncertainties... but just have fun with it, keep from getting too involved too quickly, and of course when something doesn't work out the way I want, I will not be the victim but rather I will be a part in adjusting, fixing, and working to keep this good thing good. ;)