Dear D,

I totally agree with you. It's funny but anyone doing the smallest things for me, means the world to me. Did you know that the card that Orito gave me was the first card or written form of friendship a guy has ever given me... besides emails (everyone does emails) And the card you gave me was the first friend card anyone has given me since I could remember. Letters and cards have always meant so much to me because I see the time that goes into them... like I know that you had to take time to buy it and then write in it, and then give it to me.

And I never expected a card at all from Orito. I'm still numb from it. I've never had a guy friend who is so thoughtful. This is unknown territory for me. I'm almost happy that we are just friends, because he is giving me things, a friendship that I have never had before, something I've never known. Sometimes I think that God kept Orito's heart from feeling anything more than friendship for me because God knew it would be more important for me right now to establish good friends than a relationship. And maybe if Orito and I had dated, we would have broken up and never spoken again in four months whereas as friends, we will be in each other's life always.

I think about these things sometimes.