That I Would be Good

Do you ever get the feeling that the world has stopped turning and everyone has left you behind? Why am I so depressed? I knew he'd go. SO GET OVER IT RYAN!!! **fuck 'em all**

I feel like I'm back to square one. I must have burnt through my box of matches and now I need to build another one.
But I've always been a scrapper. I've worked from the bottom many times. I just feel this fall much more strongly.

I guess I felt like I finally got a handle on freindships and relationships. But those both went tumbling down. I want to leave this town.

But that'd just be running away. That's how I'm gonna look at things. I'm on my own again. Back to when I would read books on a Friday night and be asleep by 11pm. I rememeber I'd be up at like 7:30 on a Saturday morning to clean the bathroom.

Those days have returned. I feel it in my bones.

Well, I can complain or get going...

"And if I fall, I get up again now..."