He's no good for me. I know, I know. But why does he still make my nerves boil? I have tried to play his games, and try and withstand all the doubt he brings me. And for the most part no longer feel he has much over me.
When I leave his side, I never feel reassured, I still feel I have next to nothing with him.
But he keeps calling me.
I felt guilty last night. He said that he was going to ask me to stay over. But since I never responded to his texts (I was at dinner with a friend) he played the rejected role and said, "But I guess you're busy, g-night."
I need more than a few hours to adjust my schedule. Does he expect me to wait around for his beckoning call?
I like him, but he's not good for me. I know, I know.
I know what it is. He's got walls and walls built. And I'm dying to get through them. But I just don't think I can. I honestly feel like a disposable person with him. Only wants me around when it's convenient for him. Ever since I started talking to him, I've been counting down to when I would be tossed aside. I never thought that I'd be voluntarily leaving, at least begin inching towards the door.
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