it all became a silly game

I find I have changed my mind. Realizing certain things about oneself. No substitute for love... none for life either.
I have hoped and tried. I realized that the reason I'm feeling so along is because i've abandoned myself. I am understanding that I'm tired of being the good guy. I'm tired of being there for others. I am sounding selfish right now. I will still be a friend to my friends, but what I'm saying is that I'm no longer going to try and be in people's lives.

I've had a change of heart, time for a brand new start. No more handsome faces, no foreign places, no more buying what I can't. No more heart to steal or give. No fire, no spark, no illusions.

I'm facing the truth and am going to forge my way, and I won't be waiting for you to come around this time. Don't expect me to be waiting when you're ready. I'm just at a place in my life where I can't anymore. I can't.