Hear Me Out

I just sent an email to an ex explaining that I really don't like it when people just cut me out of their life. If that's what he wants to do, then I told him to at least tell me and to go into the reasons. I'm a big boy, I can take it.
I think it mostly came from that he is worried that I'll get upset that he's dating someone new. On the contrary I'm happy for him.

yesterday I spent the whole day with Ami. I think she's the best. Ever, full stop.

I'm with Verizon now with no changes in the digits. I got my bro's old phone. It's a palm phone and it's big and bulky and I think I like it... lol... I like how it shows things better than the flip phones, but it's a brick to carry around.

I have Madonna's new song, "The Beat Goes On." It's effing awesome! It's a total parody of "Hung Up" but I like the message just as I did in HU. "I can't keep on waiting for you, anticipating that you won't keep me waiting... Always the bride's maid, never the bride, two steps behind, you've got too much pride, always supporting never the star, get it together cuz the beat goes on..."

I made a decision that I'm not waiting anymore. It's a broad statement but I like it. I feel alive now that I'm doing my thing. If I can find someone who can keep up then great. Both friends and lovers. I'm over trying to appease or walk on eggshells, I like it straight to the point or you're done. I'm not cold, but I scrutinise much more about the people in my life.