The world changed today

Take a breath, and now play the part. 
Take your heavy, sad heart and place it on the shelf, in a box. 
Now remember to smile like you mean it. 
Place up the your defenses, hide your tears for the night. 
Don't let anyone in, don't let yourself out.

Hands together, don't show the trembling.
The crowd expects you to be perfect.
And perfection is what you give them.
Careful when it rains, it could strip off your mask.
And then what?  And then what?

But when it rains, it rains on my face,
On my skin, on my arms, on my chest.
I can feel life again, I can feel again.

But then you must walk away,
And return to what they want to see.
What they want you to be.
It will be alright.  Down the street
Walking down an empty street.

we run from the presence of the sun...

Beginning again.  I see you, I see myself in the mirror.  My friend and enemy.
I try to be, but so often drape cloths and linens over your eyes.  And mine.

angry, bitter, jaded, over it, mad, etc. venting thoughts

I'm so over this whole dating scene here in Phoenix.  I just can't anymore.  I want so much and feel like I can bring some to the table, but apparently I'm fated to just be alone.  I want to cry but there are no tears.  I can't express emotion that well anymore.  I need a good cry, I want to just scream and cry and pout and then scream and cry and pout more.  These are not times for the weak of heart.  I am raked-over coals.  I can't put myself back out there again.  I can't do it.  I can't pretend to care and be in a good mood anymore.  I thought I'd be in a different place right now and I fucking can't stand this anymore.  I am done, done, done.  I miss things I haven't ever even got to experience.  I don't want to be strong anymore.  I just am not going to care anymore.  I don't give a flying fuck anymore.  I lay down this torch.

Like the 90s but with cappuccino now

Simple concepts are like hors d'oeuvres.  But at times left untouched.  I prefer to fill my plate with the possibility of never reached filled-up.  Wide-eyed as ever but wearing sunglasses to keep from showing too much emotion.


I think I forgot who I was, and forget to remember who I am.  Caught up, but differently this time.  But still in what I cannot see.

My focus is out.  I dream but I can't live the dream anymore.  I need to ground myself and walk on.


Excuses.  Action.  ;)


Now to start getting me where I want... 

Welcome to the evolution (or continuation thereof really).