angry, bitter, jaded, over it, mad, etc. venting thoughts

I'm so over this whole dating scene here in Phoenix.  I just can't anymore.  I want so much and feel like I can bring some to the table, but apparently I'm fated to just be alone.  I want to cry but there are no tears.  I can't express emotion that well anymore.  I need a good cry, I want to just scream and cry and pout and then scream and cry and pout more.  These are not times for the weak of heart.  I am raked-over coals.  I can't put myself back out there again.  I can't do it.  I can't pretend to care and be in a good mood anymore.  I thought I'd be in a different place right now and I fucking can't stand this anymore.  I am done, done, done.  I miss things I haven't ever even got to experience.  I don't want to be strong anymore.  I just am not going to care anymore.  I don't give a flying fuck anymore.  I lay down this torch.