Friday, March 26, 2010

we run from the presence of the sun...

Beginning again.  I see you, I see myself in the mirror.  My friend and enemy.
I try to be, but so often drape cloths and linens over your eyes.  And mine.

Sunday, March 07, 2010

angry, bitter, jaded, over it, mad, etc. venting thoughts

I'm so over this whole dating scene here in Phoenix.  I just can't anymore.  I want so much and feel like I can bring some to the table, but apparently I'm fated to just be alone.  I want to cry but there are no tears.  I can't express emotion that well anymore.  I need a good cry, I want to just scream and cry and pout and then scream and cry and pout more.  These are not times for the weak of heart.  I am raked-over coals.  I can't put myself back out there again.  I can't do it.  I can't pretend to care and be in a good mood anymore.  I thought I'd be in a different place right now and I fucking can't stand this anymore.  I am done, done, done.  I miss things I haven't ever even got to experience.  I don't want to be strong anymore.  I just am not going to care anymore.  I don't give a flying fuck anymore.  I lay down this torch.