SD-24d

Therapy needed. Venting ahead.  What's on my mind to look this gift horse in it's mouth.  Things are perfect, but my mind distorts them.
Big breath.
Now, I understand that we all don't have to love and like and cherish and admire the same people, the same things.  He gets it, I am still learning.
Headache at this time of night?
I breathe.  True Blood is addicting.  I am liking the social commentary.  At least what I think it may be.
Still trying to lose weight.  I was so hungry today.  I don't even know if I followed a diet or not.
Today I felt the twing of wanting to return to my stuff, to return to my space.  I love SD and love the weather and love the rotation and love rooming with CT.  It's like there is so much amazing going on that I'm swallowed up in my own personal quest for something negative.  Let it go my dear.  Let it go my love.  I learn to let go.
Remembering when I was young and all I want to do is be something that I cannot be, I will never allow myself to be that person.  I have spent so much time and energy trying to become and arrive.  But they say the journey.  The journey it is.  I may only ever have the jorney under my belt.  I may never arrive at that ultimate space in my head.
Enjoy the journey, it's all that I"m going to have.
Enjoy the journey.  Don't fret about the weight not coming off in 1.7 weeks.  Just enjoy the journey of developing a healthier lifestyle.  Enjoy the journey of sneaking in a tub of ice cream.  I am always going to be on a quest for that illusive arrival, but enjoy the journey.
Venting came out rather nicely.
Focus on the positive, the beautiful here. Don't get caught up on the arrival, spend your energy on the journey.  Love the journey.