Ideas

I've had so many ideas about what to write next. Where do I want to go? I'm bored of whining about love. But it's cathartic for me. I never will stop falling in love or give up hope. So feeling the anquish of a failed affair is just part of the game. I accept that.

I wanted him to be mine so badly. I tried to play it cool. Finally I told him what I felt. It may have damaged, but I don't know. I do know that I was able to go on much easier. He told me that he just isn't ready for a relationship with anybody right now. So friendship it is. Now I'm expending my energy developing a friendship with him, and no longer worried about if something more will arise. If so, then so be it.

There is a huge army themed party tonight. I'm rather excited for it. I've heard of it before, but never have gone. It's by invitaion only, so I guess yours truly made the cut.