distressed that sometimes the XL shirt fits perfectly

I realized that it’s okay to feel bad for noticing a difference between the email N and the person that came to visit. I was feeling so upset because in my mind I was telling myself that I should not be feeling upset for the difference. The event showed that he and I can be good friends but nothing more and I was hurt that once he actually met me, he lost interest. I started figuring that there must be something terribly wrong with me. And I was mad at myself for feeling this way, that I should just be accepting of it. But it’s okay to feel bad. I know I’m not a perfect person, but I’m also a good person, and confusion of what was different about meeting in person is okay to feel. It’s also okay that we didn’t click. I know that it was not on my part. He had his reasons. While I would like to know the reasons, I don’t want to know them. I must just continue to try and improve myself on a daily basis. After all, everyone is just traveling down their own road, watching the signs as they go, following their own hearts.