Forbidden Love

Last night I read the short story "Brokeback Mountain." It was simply amazing. I know what it's like wishing you could let someone go, yearning to not have feelings for them, even living in denial to escape what you don't want to feel. These days it's a familiar story, but BM seems to tell the tale differently. These men fight it, but give in to emotions they just don't understand.

"I wish I could quit you."

That is my favorite line from the story.
The title of the story itself implies something that will never be completely whole, something that can never survive because of it's mere nature and those whom it influences.

I never knew what it was to cry and feel the pain of love until I let myself fall for a man. I never felt like I couldn't go on unless he was in my life. I felt like he was my sun, the faith by which I lived, the potential of my voice, the feet which which I walked. He was my love, my desires to laugh. He was a goodbye I didn't know how to say, I couldn't live without him.
I felt if one day he were ever to leave me, I would close all the doors so that he couldn't ever leave. I gave him my silence, my nose, my bones, just to keep him here.

But it was a boy. A boy evoked all those emotions from me. Why a girl can't I always wonder.

But I only have one chance at this life. We all do. We've only got one as Frou Frou says. But after being raised to behave and think in a certain way, it's just too difficult to deviate from that mind set.

BM captured this so well.