This short has been everywhere and it hit me again today (Madonna's facebook page posted it):

This morning I left my head in bed and had a Dr's appt, went to the gym and did a few errands.  My head still feels like I haven't quite woken up.  So with that light I looked at my PoF account.  And since I'm not thinking clearly I looked at SG's profile.  He is the one that I allowed myself to like too much too quickly.  And two weeks (yeah, two weeks) I was into him and he told me that he only felt friendship, that he couldn't offer more than that and wasn't attracted to me sexually.  For some reason I got the crazy notion in my head that if I got my butt to the gym then over a few months he'd see that he does indeed need me, and is attracted to me, blah blah blah.
So he's been on that dating site within the past week and I knew it was going to sit and ache in my stomach when I saw that.  He's just moving on with his life.  Good for him.  I'm stuck right now, but going to the gym is going to be good for me.  I am still trying to focus on myself, stop this silly relationship lusting and busting and just be myself for a few months.
And then I see the movie like the one above and my heart feels a bit heavy again, longing for a guy to like me back.  WaWaWa...
So, strong face forward and take that step:

Can you tell I've just found out that I can add youtube videos?  sweet.

Classes start today so here goes the final didactic semester.  Yay!

I'm nearing the end of my first 3-week get-in-better-health program thingy.  So far, not so bueno.  But still bueno because I at least have made it to the gym 3-4 times a week for the past three weeks, in spite of those damned holidays!  I also attempted for a cool beard, with the inspiration being:

Mine never even got close to that.  Probably because I was hoping the beard would give me that full head of hair and the toned, defined shoulders/pecs.  Also while we're walking down pipe-dream lane, the beard would take a few years off me.  But as most people told me, I looked older.  I guess beards do that normally.  Looking at his eyes, the area around the eyes, he probably is in early to mid 20s?  I wonder if he's single and will love me... hahahaha.

But the next three weeks my goal is to lift at least 4 times a week, only 20 mins of lifting and to do some sort of cardio/fat burn for at least 30 mins five times a week, which equals 150mins of c/fb.  Or I guess as long as I get the 150 mins in, i.e. 20 mins one day and 40 another.  Also, I know I am soooo bad at eating healthy.  I love, love, love, love to eat late at night.  Trying to break that carnal pleasure is going to have to probably require an alteration in my DNA.  But necessary.