Monday, January 09, 2012

This short has been everywhere and it hit me again today (Madonna's facebook page posted it):


This morning I left my head in bed and had a Dr's appt, went to the gym and did a few errands.  My head still feels like I haven't quite woken up.  So with that light I looked at my PoF account.  And since I'm not thinking clearly I looked at SG's profile.  He is the one that I allowed myself to like too much too quickly.  And two weeks (yeah, two weeks) I was into him and he told me that he only felt friendship, that he couldn't offer more than that and wasn't attracted to me sexually.  For some reason I got the crazy notion in my head that if I got my butt to the gym then over a few months he'd see that he does indeed need me, and is attracted to me, blah blah blah.
So he's been on that dating site within the past week and I knew it was going to sit and ache in my stomach when I saw that.  He's just moving on with his life.  Good for him.  I'm stuck right now, but going to the gym is going to be good for me.  I am still trying to focus on myself, stop this silly relationship lusting and busting and just be myself for a few months.
And then I see the movie like the one above and my heart feels a bit heavy again, longing for a guy to like me back.  WaWaWa...
So, strong face forward and take that step:


Can you tell I've just found out that I can add youtube videos?  sweet.

Classes start today so here goes the final didactic semester.  Yay!

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