Monday Check In

It's still crazy hot these days.  I'm slowing dying - and melodramatic, yes.  This morning I got myself to the gym and did a full run, meaning I did 25-30mins of weights and then did ~1hour of some sort of cardio or related movement, not being full-blown cardio.  It felt good and I went to a swanky new gym that had little tvs on all the treadmills and ellipticals, it was a real treat.  Also it was fun to see some new eye candy.

But on to other news, I weighted in at 289.  Still heavy, fat, obese, yuck, but at least it was 2 lbs less than last time.

Confession:  I am addicted to food.  I ate good all day and because I cut my carb intake by quite a bit today I was STARVING by 5pm.  So early (for me) dinner and now I am battling the snackys.  So I am blogging about it.  I do enjoy food but I get to a point that if I say no to myself, then I get all anxious that I'll never be able to enjoy food again.  And I'm addicted to that full and totally satisfied feeling.  It's a comfort thing that I crave to lull me to sleep at night.

Drugs:  I have taken myself off completely of my Prozac.  Very excited to no longer be on it.  It's been, oh about seven years now and it was just time.  I still get some headaches but I attribute that to my decrease of caffeine intake.  I really am trying to get things under control.  Visiting my family, I was amazed at how much discipline my father uses in his diet now.  He is borderline diabetic and he is on meds for it but wants to be off them.  So he's trying really hard to watch his diet and it's amazing to see him, he's a totally different man when it comes to eating habits than he was just a few months ago.  I too am on track to go the diabetic route if I don't stop eating when I'm full right now.

Every once in a while I come across a picture of a guy who I feel I have it in me to look like or he just gives me that extra mental push to do better.  And I'm also enjoying Picasa a lot so I like to tweek photos.

This picture for me oozes confidence.  Someday I want to lay out by the pool and feel as confident as he seems - course I may not be in the itsy-bitsy green plaid bikini bottom... haha... but he def wears it well!