I tried so hard for so long

I like new beginnings.  Ever since I was a new teenager, in church, the girls would go from a primary class into a young women's class (for 12-17yo) and they had an event that heralded their progression called New Beginnings.  I wanted to participate in that.  Not that I wanted to put on my beautiful frock, but that I love a good presage.
Ever since I think I have at least three or four each day.  Welcome to today's New Beginnings.  Bienvenidos mis amigos.

I've been an emotional wreck for the past few weeks.  Demons have come to visit from their dark spaces where I had to allocate for them to live.  They aren't dire, but there nonetheless.
"Little (boy) you've got to forget the past and learn to forgive..." - Madonna
So I try really hard to carry forward, though my pastime of choice is to bemoan the past and keep my eyes looking over my shoulder.  I regret many things.  And I spend my present regretting the past.  As a Madonna fan, one would think I'd try to study to learn to get over the regret.  One would think.

Last night I watched the first half of Mulligans.  It was a bit difficult to suspend my disbelief, and I feel kind of weird when a dad and his son's best friend develop a relationship.  Though there was not much time spent on it being developed.  It was pretty transparent.  But I've only watched the first half.  I may get onto the 2nd half tonight, or not.  I don't know.  But the cast is beautiful:

Dan Payne - 6'4"/230lbs










Charlie David - 5'10"/175lbs










And now that I'm distracted, here is my current fascination: Henry Cavill