And so it goes...

Well, he did it. He finally pulled the plug on us and we are no more. I was planning for this to happen, but A) I was going to be the one to be the plug puller and B) I wasn't ready for it to happen so soon. But this is good. This is good that he did it. He was finally ready to express his feelings and confess that he just isn't in a place to be in a relationship with me. He understood that it wasn't fair for me and I had been patient enough so it was time he stopped living in his world of complacency and comfort and pushed the house down. And I'm good. I'm happy that he finally came to those terms. I feel like him being the one to actually end it hopefully helped him to go places emotionally with himself of what he needs and what needs to occur for him to feel something.
Back to me.
Like I said, I was planning on this anyway, just a little shocked at the quickness that it unraveled; and happy and sad. We are now just roommates and that is nice to have a nice bed all to myself. He has been gracious to let me have the master room and said there is no time frame from which to work, but I feel that being out of the apt into my own space in a month or so will be good for us both. It will help the transition. But right now, so much change, I need to take it a little at a time. So the month or two that we'll be roommates will also be good for me. I feel that I still feel for him. ;)